We sold our house. We are no longer home owners. We no longer have to pay a house payment and a rent payment. It took less than a year for the house to sell. We made it! Praise the Lord!
It is only by His grace that we made it. He taught me so much through this past year. He taught me about letting go when I would rather have such a strong grip and not let go. He taught me about getting out of that boat and walking on the water while keeping my eyes on Him.
I would love to tell you...LESSONS LEARNED. They have been learned but they still need tweaked every now and then when my fingers start to grasp tightly onto something. It is a struggle and always will be, I fear. Change is not something that I look forward to or welcome with excitement. I do not like change. I like things to remain as is. But I do know that God isn't about things staying the same forever and ever. He is about stretching us and teaching us and that He has done for me.
On the day of our closing we worked so hard to finish moving "stuff" out of the house. We had a shed full of outdoor/yard equipment, junk in our garage and miscellaneous things still in the house. As I made that one last walk through the upstairs, I walked into Peanut's old bedroom and felt the sadness of letting go of this home hit me.
As I walked into Pumpkin's room, I was flooded with memories of my sweet little girls as tiny babies in that room. I remembered walking into that room for the very first time and knowing this was the house that would be ours and this was the room that would someday be a nursery where precious babies would rest their sweet heads.
I remembered stripping layers of wallpaper off the walls with Dobbie and watching it transform into a baby's room as it was painted. I remembered the first time my tiny Peanut slept in her room during a morning nap.
I remembered holding her and singing her bedtime songs every night in the wicker chair in the corner of the room as she nursed. I remembered preparing it once again for another sweet baby after Peanut had moved into her big girl room.
With the memories came the tears and the realization that this is no longer our home. A new family would move in and it would become their home. It is our greatest hope that their time there is filled with happiness and that wonderful memories are made. This home, the first home that we bought will always have a special place in our hearts.
We loved that home and loved making it ours. It was a perfect fit for us then but now it is time to let go. Now it is SOLD!
Now we are making new memories in a new place and you know what? God didn't stay in that home up north, He came with us. He walked alongside us and brought us to where we are today. His promise is that He will stay right here and never leave. For that I am so thankful and grateful. Home is where the heart is and my heart is wherever Daddy, Peanut, Pumpkin and I are.
-Mama
